The diamond in my wedding ring fell out yesterday.
Is it a sign??? Is the universe trying to tell me something. Well I have a message for the universe...SHUT UP!!! I'm not listening...I'm not listening...I'm not listening.
Well...the question I've been asked all day and asked myself is how do I feel about this? It was the last instrument he held in his wonderfully talented hands and played. I wish I could say I came home that Friday and I heard this wonderful melodic Chrisitian song blaring from his Line 6 amp, but no...it was Iron Man. Funny. The pick is still wedged where he put it that night January 2nd, 2009. I've not had the heart to remove it.
I tell the ladies in our "Life after Death" widows group we can't bog ourselves down with earthly things...these things our not our husbands. I still believe that, but as you must realize I'm not a heavenly body like my husband so my fleshy heart and mind take over and the grieving process starts again with each instrument that is sold. But this too shall pass. I know my Peter and he would say...."babydoll...I'm always with you and my spirit will never die, only my body is gone". As usual he's right [...]
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Good morning my love...
I awoke to the sound of crying and sobbing like I've never heard before. Then I realized it was me. Mourning my love. Nights are hard....but when the morning light comes again I know I must live through another day without you here with me. The pain...oh the pain...of your absence is so unbelievably deep that I cannot fnd the words.
I miss you so much my love and there are so many things going on right now that I need your strength to help me through it. But I've learned since I don't have it to reach out to Papa God although sometimes I fail there too. I forget and try to get through this without his guiding hands and then I stumble and fall and there he is to pick me up. Trailing behind me just waiting for me to cry out Papa...Papa I can't do this on my own.
His Grace is sufficient!!!
2 Corinthians 12:9 = But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." [...]
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Getting ready for work and I was thinking of how blessed I am that I have a wonderful and great Papa God. To think you are with Him and bathe is His love and glory daily. I envy you my love and I miss you so much I still ache daily for you, but Papa is dealing with me on this. Okay I better run because there is no wonderful man here to help me let the dogs out or make my breakfast and lunch and get me off to work on time. You are the best husband and friend a woman could ever be blessed with.
Your loving (Wif) giggle giggle oh yeah one thing...."you're not the one making the pizza are you"? ; )~~
What is it about death that makes people just act weird around you? Whenever I go out and people see my wedding ring they will ask about my husband, then I say he's been promoted home and no longer physically with me but I have his ashes which don't talk back to me or interrupt me when I'm trying to make a point. Then just like a deer in headlights they just stop and uuuhhhggg...It cracks me up.
When I had Peter cremated I purchased a special gold bracelet its shaped like a heart and it's hollow in the middle with a tiny screw on the back. It holds a little portion they put in of his ashes. Well, if you know anythng about gold you know that 14k is a soft gold and it broke and the heart fell off. I walked in to a local jeweler and this is the conversation that presented itself...
Hello I have bracelet here that broke and needs to fixed.
No problem I can take it and add some 10k gold to the loop that will make it stronger and it won't wear through again [...]
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